even the best laid plans

she holds his heart
and he tries again
it's every hour that the same voices start in
and he seems to think it's a long way down
lately it's not so bad when she's not around

and she holds his heart like a glass in her hand
one of these nights I swear I'll break you again
and this seems like a long way to fall she said
but I've been waiting here
been waiting for so long

and can you tell me time invades
what wells inside me now
and I will find the words to heal

she holds his heart and she tries to sleep
long after the last promise is made
it's only the company you keep
it seems like a long way to fall he said
I've been waiting here
waiting for so long

and can you telll me time invades what wells inside me now
and I will find the words to heal

and I never asked for more than I'm prepared to take
and I'm not the one who learned from our mistake

hoo boy

I've got lots to do. This is the last thing I've expected to happen this week but I really should know better. I knew all this would happen. I knew I had to figure out my summer and the rest of my life this week. I knew I was delivering Clifton's computer and hosting an all-nighter on Thursday. I knew I was going to my sister's recital this Saturday if it kills me, and I knew I was driving to Canada to see Radiohead on Sunday because I already paid for it. But now that I'm down in it, it all seems entirely too fast and I'm not feeling like I'm ready to handle all this. Why? Dunno. I guess I figured decisions would come easier, or maybe I'd get up in the morning and want to have an agenda. HA! I'm thoroughly entrenched in summer break mode and I'd gladly enjoy a month of it if I thought I could afford it. As it is, I'm not in that position.

So anyway, big on my mind is this summer - should I schoolify, get down with the workage or what? There's many, many sides to this rubik's polyhedron, and really need prayer for guidance. I notice that God likes to lead one step at a time, and here I am asking Him for the itinerary for the entire hike. I hope that I find the right step for now that will put me on the top of the mountain later.

I've said what I'd said and you know what I mean
But I still can't focus on anything
We kiss on the mouth but still cough down our sleeves
-Brock-