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I dare you
Jul. 10th, 2001 11:25 amSpeaking of bagging groceries, I had a wacky dream last night about a Safeway... My parents had scored me a job hookup there, which if you had asked me I wouldn't have thought very exciting. I met this guy who was supposed to be my supervisor, and all I could think of was Cliff's warning about some manager that was a total jerk, and wondering if this was him (yes, I now remember that he was at Albertsons. But this is a dream. Cut me some slack.). He seemed nice enough, but I doubted him so much that I figured for sure he was out to get me. He had me wandering around the store weeding out shoplifters who, when confronted, would fight back and I had to drag them into the back for 'treatment'. Could be classified as a 'fighting dream' I suppose, but the scary employment elements were too strong. This is what I get for sleeping in.
This negativity does NOT help me to have a positive outlook on job-stalking efforts today. Unfortunately, I've nothing else to do. I have to once again place nose to grindstone and like it. Great. I tell you, I'm counting the days till school starts just because it means my employment requirement will be over. I mean, there comes a point where it gets ridiculous. If someone finally hires me in August, what's that give me? Six weeks of employment? How useful is that? How much money can I realistically make in that time? More importantly, who's going to hire someone that knows they'll quit in 6 weeks? Will this person be a useful worker? I suspect that the answer to all this is no.
But I can't afford for that to happen due to both parental and monetary concerns. It seems I am quickly running out of time. If this round of hopes doesn't pan out to realities the grimness of the situation is going to become critical.
My last, best hope of course is that I'll make $200/month with Sounds Unlimited. But I don't know that. It's just a hope. My mother doesn't trust hopes such as this, so neither can I.
PS to Andrea T: Please stay sane out there in PA this August. Read On Crossing Borders again for a different perspective on your problem.
This negativity does NOT help me to have a positive outlook on job-stalking efforts today. Unfortunately, I've nothing else to do. I have to once again place nose to grindstone and like it. Great. I tell you, I'm counting the days till school starts just because it means my employment requirement will be over. I mean, there comes a point where it gets ridiculous. If someone finally hires me in August, what's that give me? Six weeks of employment? How useful is that? How much money can I realistically make in that time? More importantly, who's going to hire someone that knows they'll quit in 6 weeks? Will this person be a useful worker? I suspect that the answer to all this is no.
But I can't afford for that to happen due to both parental and monetary concerns. It seems I am quickly running out of time. If this round of hopes doesn't pan out to realities the grimness of the situation is going to become critical.
My last, best hope of course is that I'll make $200/month with Sounds Unlimited. But I don't know that. It's just a hope. My mother doesn't trust hopes such as this, so neither can I.
PS to Andrea T: Please stay sane out there in PA this August. Read On Crossing Borders again for a different perspective on your problem.
