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shipping off
Aug. 1st, 2001 11:22 pmI'm waking up at 4:30am tomorrow, so I had better go to bed. I'll be back Monday to face the horrors of what happens when busy people leave.
Meanwhile, keep my sister and I in your prayers. Can't speak for her, but as excited as I am, I have a propensity to stress out and get my expectations (both of myself and the event) way too high to actually do what I'm supposed to do - have fun. My mind always wanders back to my first youth convention in Redlands, CA. I have nothing but the best memories and I know they're accurate. It was stressless, relaxing, and generally incredible. The weather was insane, but the food was good, the women were nice, and the learnin' was intense. Disneyland/U.Studios afterward sure didn't hurt either. :) Last time could've been as good but... wasn't. I don't really know what went wrong, I guess maybe I expected too much? Anyway, I've been waiting for this week for 2 years now, and it's sweeping down upon me faster than I ever could have anticipated. My reaction has been to panic and stuff, but that's mostly because I've been working so hard. I'm hoping that will, you know, pass, and I can settle into the vacation. I really enjoy travel, especially where you fly and get fed and stuff. It's just that there's so much to worry about and so many people to see and can you see how this would quickly get out of hand? I go in there, as most people do, expecting real times with good homies and we kind of expect cool stuff to happen without involvement - as if the coolness will drop into our laps. This, of course, fails to happen unless we do something about it and we're let down. Constantly.
regarding these events, I have 2 poems: Redlands '97 and Canada '99
and one song: Stars all seem to weep
I'll be thinking of all you. I hope you'll do the same.
When every line speaks the language of love
And never held the meaning I was thinking of
And I've lost the line between right or wrong
I just want to find the place where I belong
-Beth Orton-
Meanwhile, keep my sister and I in your prayers. Can't speak for her, but as excited as I am, I have a propensity to stress out and get my expectations (both of myself and the event) way too high to actually do what I'm supposed to do - have fun. My mind always wanders back to my first youth convention in Redlands, CA. I have nothing but the best memories and I know they're accurate. It was stressless, relaxing, and generally incredible. The weather was insane, but the food was good, the women were nice, and the learnin' was intense. Disneyland/U.Studios afterward sure didn't hurt either. :) Last time could've been as good but... wasn't. I don't really know what went wrong, I guess maybe I expected too much? Anyway, I've been waiting for this week for 2 years now, and it's sweeping down upon me faster than I ever could have anticipated. My reaction has been to panic and stuff, but that's mostly because I've been working so hard. I'm hoping that will, you know, pass, and I can settle into the vacation. I really enjoy travel, especially where you fly and get fed and stuff. It's just that there's so much to worry about and so many people to see and can you see how this would quickly get out of hand? I go in there, as most people do, expecting real times with good homies and we kind of expect cool stuff to happen without involvement - as if the coolness will drop into our laps. This, of course, fails to happen unless we do something about it and we're let down. Constantly.
regarding these events, I have 2 poems: Redlands '97 and Canada '99
and one song: Stars all seem to weep
I'll be thinking of all you. I hope you'll do the same.
When every line speaks the language of love
And never held the meaning I was thinking of
And I've lost the line between right or wrong
I just want to find the place where I belong
-Beth Orton-
