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Mar. 2nd, 2003 06:42 pmSo yeah, you know how the economy's not doing so good? Yeah, costs have been up and it's slow this time of year... Looks like we aren't going to be able to put out a catalog until fall. So if you could just, you know, go ahead and stay home unless we call you, that'd be great...
2003 strikes! Chalk one up to lousy economies, beginnings and endings. I knew this was coming, I hoped it would wait another month at least. Alas, I am jobless and have two months of savings.
My word of the month: flux.
In dictionary terms, flux is a noun, meaning a continued flow or flood.
In physics terms, flux is the rate of flow of a fluid through a surface, or the portion of the electromagnetic field crossing through a loop or surface ("area vector"). In any useful electrical situation, the flux will be changing, because it creates electric currents in the area or loop it intersects. This is how power is generated, by changing magnetic flux through a loop. A basic AC generator is just a loop spinning inside a static magnetic field. As the loop rotates, the changing flux creates a current which changes direction every 360 degrees. Contacts on the end of the loop carry this current into the power grid.
The reason it's my word of the month: both these meanings describe this February for me. My job is ended, my school is ending, home is becoming more a place to live and less "home." Good friends are quiet or absent. True, February is the Monday of months. I guess this one feels different because as it ends, I face March. March, which means so much more now. I have to find work in March. I'm taking my first online class, my last at EDCC. No more parking on campus or hassling the teachers. March where I have to start planning to move out, for this will truly no longer be home come September. I feel like I'm adding a story onto my life, a life I've so carefully built up after having it razed one year ago. Remodeling is risky business.
Changing flux creates current in a closed loop. All these changes add up to something useful, the creation of power. I have the power to determine where and with whom I live, what job I take, how I earn money and how much, which friends I will see, which I forget, which I miss.
Strong flux creates high voltages backed by strong current; touching these currents can be fatal. Change is good, and power is useful, but rapid change is hard to manage, and power can get out of hand. Whole lives I can change with words on a screen or feet through a door, hands in the air and a thought unbidden but acted on. I do not yet feel myself an adequate vessel for swift change.
But change comes nonetheless, and I, prepared or otherwise, must ride it out and hope I don't shock myself in the process.
Tomorrow is 03-03-03. I shall try to find words appropriate to the situation.
2003 strikes! Chalk one up to lousy economies, beginnings and endings. I knew this was coming, I hoped it would wait another month at least. Alas, I am jobless and have two months of savings.
My word of the month: flux.
In dictionary terms, flux is a noun, meaning a continued flow or flood.
In physics terms, flux is the rate of flow of a fluid through a surface, or the portion of the electromagnetic field crossing through a loop or surface ("area vector"). In any useful electrical situation, the flux will be changing, because it creates electric currents in the area or loop it intersects. This is how power is generated, by changing magnetic flux through a loop. A basic AC generator is just a loop spinning inside a static magnetic field. As the loop rotates, the changing flux creates a current which changes direction every 360 degrees. Contacts on the end of the loop carry this current into the power grid.
The reason it's my word of the month: both these meanings describe this February for me. My job is ended, my school is ending, home is becoming more a place to live and less "home." Good friends are quiet or absent. True, February is the Monday of months. I guess this one feels different because as it ends, I face March. March, which means so much more now. I have to find work in March. I'm taking my first online class, my last at EDCC. No more parking on campus or hassling the teachers. March where I have to start planning to move out, for this will truly no longer be home come September. I feel like I'm adding a story onto my life, a life I've so carefully built up after having it razed one year ago. Remodeling is risky business.
Changing flux creates current in a closed loop. All these changes add up to something useful, the creation of power. I have the power to determine where and with whom I live, what job I take, how I earn money and how much, which friends I will see, which I forget, which I miss.
Strong flux creates high voltages backed by strong current; touching these currents can be fatal. Change is good, and power is useful, but rapid change is hard to manage, and power can get out of hand. Whole lives I can change with words on a screen or feet through a door, hands in the air and a thought unbidden but acted on. I do not yet feel myself an adequate vessel for swift change.
But change comes nonetheless, and I, prepared or otherwise, must ride it out and hope I don't shock myself in the process.
Tomorrow is 03-03-03. I shall try to find words appropriate to the situation.
