in like a lion

Finals week is coming, can you hear it? I usually get real quiet this time of the quarter, mostly because I try to keep from thinking too much, I'd rather save my brains for school where they're really needed. On the other hand, I'm not working right now, so there's 3 hours a day to do... what? More homework? I obviously didn't need it before, what am I to do with it now? It'd be nice to suddenly get really good grades, I mean if I'm not making money and all. But how boring! And how many times did I say to myself, when all I'm doing is working and have free time at home, I'll be sure and do X, Y and Z things because then I'll have time for them. But in the face of finals week X, Y and Z become "not studying" and get deprioritized. So it's a catch-22 that isn't going away because come spring break (and all of next quarter for that matter), most everything pales in the face of GETTING A JOB and my "leisure" time is riddled with undeserved guilt.

Life sucks and then you die. I have my own car, a nice computer with a 21" monitor, and more games than I have time to play. How can I reconcile this vague depression with my wealth? I guess being young and invincible doesn't make you happy. Still trying to figure that one out.