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life in the cracks
Jul. 23rd, 2004 06:56 pmThe grass is turning brown. I can smell it. It smells like... other states. Camping trips. Warm light on my face. Trips to California in Highschool. Long days stretched out before me, like a sleeping cat on a hot day.
It simply refuses to cool off in my apartment. I feel like I've been sweating non-stop for the past 72 hours. This is of course untrue, as we have a nicely air-conditioned office at work, which was a decent 78F today - up from the usual 72, as it is currently the only office with a/c.
And I'm starting to relax a bit more, finishing Wednesday's test helped. I don't even know whether I passed or not. But at least it's over. I also encountered July 20th's entry in My Utmost and realized I had strayed. This is one of my favorite entries, but I had never before noticed this sentence:
My car amp is installed and it sounds pretty damn good. Kind of pricey getting it put in though. :-\ Ended up costing more than the amp itself. Plus, to my annoyance, I have to go back on Tuesday to have it re-mounted, as they only got half the mounting screws into the frame of the car. They could've done a lot worse, so I'm not terribly irked, but it's one more thing.
I did a really bad job of going to bed on time last night, in fact I'm surprised I don't feel sicker because of it. I'm not sure tonight will be any better. It's hard when the only hours I think are cool enough to be up doing stuff are the same ones I should be sleeping through.
It simply refuses to cool off in my apartment. I feel like I've been sweating non-stop for the past 72 hours. This is of course untrue, as we have a nicely air-conditioned office at work, which was a decent 78F today - up from the usual 72, as it is currently the only office with a/c.
And I'm starting to relax a bit more, finishing Wednesday's test helped. I don't even know whether I passed or not. But at least it's over. I also encountered July 20th's entry in My Utmost and realized I had strayed. This is one of my favorite entries, but I had never before noticed this sentence:
When we are in an unhealthy condition either physically or emotionally, we always look for thrills in life.This was exactly how I was feeling - distracted, like there should always be something ahead of me that would be more engaging than what I was doing. I get that way sometimes when I'm bored, but mostly I don't feel like that. It can get very tiresome after a few weeks, so reading that was like "oh! That's what I'm doing, and I should probably stop doing it." I'm usually good about staying happy where I am, but sometimes it takes some effort to get there, especially when you feel summer - and your life - slipping through your fingers like so much gold dust.
My car amp is installed and it sounds pretty damn good. Kind of pricey getting it put in though. :-\ Ended up costing more than the amp itself. Plus, to my annoyance, I have to go back on Tuesday to have it re-mounted, as they only got half the mounting screws into the frame of the car. They could've done a lot worse, so I'm not terribly irked, but it's one more thing.
I did a really bad job of going to bed on time last night, in fact I'm surprised I don't feel sicker because of it. I'm not sure tonight will be any better. It's hard when the only hours I think are cool enough to be up doing stuff are the same ones I should be sleeping through.
