hoo boy

[intjonathan]

I've got lots to do. This is the last thing I've expected to happen this week but I really should know better. I knew all this would happen. I knew I had to figure out my summer and the rest of my life this week. I knew I was delivering Clifton's computer and hosting an all-nighter on Thursday. I knew I was going to my sister's recital this Saturday if it kills me, and I knew I was driving to Canada to see Radiohead on Sunday because I already paid for it. But now that I'm down in it, it all seems entirely too fast and I'm not feeling like I'm ready to handle all this. Why? Dunno. I guess I figured decisions would come easier, or maybe I'd get up in the morning and want to have an agenda. HA! I'm thoroughly entrenched in summer break mode and I'd gladly enjoy a month of it if I thought I could afford it. As it is, I'm not in that position.

So anyway, big on my mind is this summer - should I schoolify, get down with the workage or what? There's many, many sides to this rubik's polyhedron, and really need prayer for guidance. I notice that God likes to lead one step at a time, and here I am asking Him for the itinerary for the entire hike. I hope that I find the right step for now that will put me on the top of the mountain later.

I've said what I'd said and you know what I mean
But I still can't focus on anything
We kiss on the mouth but still cough down our sleeves
-Brock-

Comments

you nailed it

[fuzzandfeedback.livejournal.com]

I like "God leads us a step at a time, and I want the itinerary for the whole hike". . . very true.
And said better than I could.