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intjonathanI am so BORED.
Which is an odd thing to say considering how busy I really am/was/should be. So not feeling the school vibe this year. And I wonder if it was like this in past falls, or whether this is a new thing because I'm paying for it. One would think that if you're paying to get some silly grades, you'd be driven to make them good ones. I have found the opposite to be true. I'm way spoiled, I guess, being able to come home and spend time on whatever until I feel like going to bed. No more, that's for sure. I always was worried about this happening in the eventual quarter where I took no compsci courses. Instead it's american history, advanced english, and second-quarter physics. Not the most gripping of subjects, period, and even less so for a geek major such as myself.
But behind it all is this vague feeling of boredom, or perhaps laziness. I'm used to surviving life between weekends, when Cool Stuff happens. Now it's, Saturday, then what? Nothing new. No lan parties to plan, no changing work schedules, no movies to see. No shows to stand in, no Shari's to haunt, no Graham to harass, nothing but physics, english, history and work from now till Christmas.
Pardon me if I come off as depressed, but you know, everyone's doing it. It's the way to be for students! Perhaps I have a poor seperation between school and life. Always feeling like I really shouldn't be enjoying myself doing anything, rather burying the nose in textbooks is right and proper. Kinda sucks the fun out of it.
It's only 2 1/2 weeks. This should pass. Well, it'd better. My birthday's coming up. Nobody likes to be depressed then.
Which is an odd thing to say considering how busy I really am/was/should be. So not feeling the school vibe this year. And I wonder if it was like this in past falls, or whether this is a new thing because I'm paying for it. One would think that if you're paying to get some silly grades, you'd be driven to make them good ones. I have found the opposite to be true. I'm way spoiled, I guess, being able to come home and spend time on whatever until I feel like going to bed. No more, that's for sure. I always was worried about this happening in the eventual quarter where I took no compsci courses. Instead it's american history, advanced english, and second-quarter physics. Not the most gripping of subjects, period, and even less so for a geek major such as myself.
But behind it all is this vague feeling of boredom, or perhaps laziness. I'm used to surviving life between weekends, when Cool Stuff happens. Now it's, Saturday, then what? Nothing new. No lan parties to plan, no changing work schedules, no movies to see. No shows to stand in, no Shari's to haunt, no Graham to harass, nothing but physics, english, history and work from now till Christmas.
Pardon me if I come off as depressed, but you know, everyone's doing it. It's the way to be for students! Perhaps I have a poor seperation between school and life. Always feeling like I really shouldn't be enjoying myself doing anything, rather burying the nose in textbooks is right and proper. Kinda sucks the fun out of it.
It's only 2 1/2 weeks. This should pass. Well, it'd better. My birthday's coming up. Nobody likes to be depressed then.
