drove to meet my fate and turned around

[intjonathan]

So I left late for Jeremy's party (distraction!) and by the time I made it to Mount Vernon at 4:15 I realized two things: 1) It was still raining, and while I have no problem going 75 on wet roads, apparantly rain reduces people here to Sunday drivers that can't exceed 35 and 2) it's 4:15 and it's going to take me half an hour just to clear Mount Vernon, much less Everett. I probably wasn't going to arrive at the party till 6.
It was at this point I started kicking myself for not buying a cell phone last weekend like I wanted to, so I took the clearview exit and found a pay phone. OF COURSE I was in Mount Vernon, and Jeremy's phone is a Bellingham number, so it was going to cost me $2.95. Fat chance, Verizon. I'm turning this car around. So back up to Bellingham I went, to my empty, disassembled room.
I took some time and put things back together enough to use my computer for a while. All this "driving without arriving" really left me feeling annoyed, and I sort of wanted to just go home anyway to spite the traffic. I tried and failed to make dinner and instead ended up joining Becky at Nickleby's for some grilled cheese sandwiches. I went south from there.
This whole combination of getting up early for commencement, the weather, Jer moving out, driving in the rain, etc. etc. has left me in a real funk. And let me tell you, the last thing I need right now is a funk.

I realized while lying on my newly unlofted bed that I no longer will be sleeping with a guard rail on my left. It felt like a metaphor for many things I cannot articulate.

I'm waking up early tomorrow to go with my parents to drop off some friends at the airport and then explore Fry's.
I think.
Somehow it seems hard to justify skipping church for that, especially considering my mood, especially considering it's already 11pm and all I want right now is sleep.

Stavesacre - Freefall (From Hand To Hand)

Sleepless eyes open wide
before Heaven I stand again
If there's no winning this war tonight
I was wondering
If you could steady my spinning head

Comments

[beastofexmoor.livejournal.com]

Western Washington has the shortest memory ever. We spend nine months a year driving in the rain and when it leaves for two and a half months we forget how to.

[niralisse.livejournal.com]

Ain't that the truth. At least with things like snow we have an excuse.

[huggybee.livejournal.com]

in case I forgot to say it, thanks again for joining me! :D If you hadn't, I might have been pissy enough to not go by myself and just stayed home pouting or something lame. 8) I keep forgetting how good food tastes when it's HOT! lol