Just another day of homework and cooking

[intjonathan]

APPARANTLY my entire friends list has decided to write something about valentine's day, as if it was a major holiday or something. Frankly I don't see the big deal, I don't see why I should feel more lonely today than I do every other day.

Though I admit to some strong pangs of worry when I see strangely earnest threads about happy couples or my roomate buying gold roses for his fiancee and just go "oh." It feels almost like college is choking off some honest and important part of me, and I wonder whether the fault is my own or some inevitability. I wonder whether two years from now I will know the difference.

Perhaps my destiny is to hibernate, percolating in code and abstraction for three years, and emerge yawning into the sunlight of the real world and a strange new frontier called "women." Will I blink and say "not worth it" like I did in highschool? Will I decide the time for risk is now, missing years be damned?

Am I sacrificing 3 of my best years in the name of an education that will fail to reward me?

What does it profit a man to gain the whole world, yet lose his soul?

Comments

[huggybee.livejournal.com]

Personally, from what I know of you, I'd say you're not missing too much right now. You're too smart and nice for the dumb drunk bimbos of bellingham. Go graduate, become rich, famous and insanely intelligent then pimp the hell out of yourself. :) Hope you had a nice ... SATURDAY. :)

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[popstarkiller.livejournal.com]

Sorry I have to ask... but HuggyBee? I don't know many people who have tried to hug a bee or any other insect for that matter. Anyhow.

j k.

Re: my name

[huggybee.livejournal.com]

I didn't choose the name. My best friend (fourthwand) started calling me that back when I was fifteen or sixteen. (she set up my LJ account) The name comes from (I think page 88 of) Roald Dahl's The BFG. the giant says to the little girl "You stay in my pocket now my little huggybee" and... it stuck. So, yeah. take it up with her. :)WHY YA GOTTA PICK ON PEOPLE'S NAMES ANYWAYS???? [sniffle] :( [pouts and wanders off to kill herself] j/k ;)

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[niralisse.livejournal.com]

I think if you met her it'd make more sense.

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[huggybee.livejournal.com]

what's THAT supposed to mean??? I'm being attacked from all sides!!! why don't you guys just LINE UP to throw stones at me, I'll stand still for ya!!! jeez!! what can I slit my wrist with?.... [grabs chapstick] this'll be interesting... ;) sidenote: Thanks for helping me with my computer earlier. Didn't mean to bother you with my incessant ignorant questions. but I DO appreciate it. :D (going away now... I promise).... :)

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[niralisse.livejournal.com]

You do realize that's your second suicide threat today? Don't be so quick to off yourself. Not everyone wants you to go away!

Only two?

[huggybee.livejournal.com]

wow, I'm slacking. :) besides, the chapstick didn't work. not I just have a greasy mint flavored arm. wow. that sounds so sexxy. [gag] are you going to the haiku-de-ta tomorrow? you should read something (of any poetical form) write about chapstick! GO! Be inspired! (I need to stop eating so much candy.. the sugar is amking the room twitch) :D catch ya later :D

Re: Only two?

[niralisse.livejournal.com]

No, I will not be going to the 7-syllable smackdown, as I will be back in Seattle with my family. Besides, there'd be no way I could top Graham:

man with gross moustache
shut the fuck up shut the fuck
up shut the fuck up

That boy has issues...

[huggybee.livejournal.com]

and yet we love him for his disturbing poetic talent. :) Have fun in Seattle... I guess tomorrow's a holiday? I keep hearing about it and yet I still have to work three jobs. yay not having a social life. lol Anyways, drive safe, don't talk to strangers, unless they offer you candy, have all the fun I can't on a national holiday and go to bed with this disturbing thought: there are five pictures of me drinking on your one single post. I feel like I need to go to AA now. (can't get a new picture up until I can get someone to resize it for me and my friends love to torture me so, it'll be a while.) anyways, I'll shut up now. :) catch ya later

[beastofexmoor.livejournal.com]

Anything I wrote about valentines day was happy and had fun at the expense of people who care.

Glad its the 15th though so I can go back to being 'so lonely :( '

[niralisse.livejournal.com]

You were right though, it's a good day to be single. Much less stress. I used it as an opportunity to get some things off my chest.

[popstarkiller.livejournal.com]

Dude, you've got more than three friends. Don't feel lonely. And I think Victory Day... er... Valentine's Day is not really a major holiday, unless you're talking about major fun to poke jabs at people who really think you have to buy chocolate and wear stupid outfits that invlolve flowers or red of any shade. But Saint Patrick's day.... now I'll be writin' about that when it comes around like it's the best day EVER.

[plaidgirl.livejournal.com]

good post.

Eep.

[fieria.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry my post put you in a mini-funk; not that it helps, but I think college sucks the life out of people too. I worry that by the time I graduate, I'll be fit for nothing else but to join the working class of Lemming America; that all my joi d'vivre will have been sucked out of me. I cling to the hope that, once I graduate and don't have "homework" (I will refuse to work for any business that makes me take my work home with me), I will once again have a life.

But, yes. Students sacrifice the best years of their lives to better the lesser years of their lives. It is something one must come to terms with.

As for the women question, dinna worry yerself aboot it. College relationships, like highschool relationships, are highly overrated. If I had my choice in fate, I wouldn't have fallen into a long-term relationship at the beginning of college--there is freedom in singlehood that one misses, and I don't think it's good to be seriously involved when "young" (as much as 21 is still young). Tis one of the reasons Bri and I broke off our engagement. Women is trouble. Avoid them until you have a lot of time at your disposal, because relationships suck all your free time away.