Just another day of homework and cooking

[intjonathan]

APPARANTLY my entire friends list has decided to write something about valentine's day, as if it was a major holiday or something. Frankly I don't see the big deal, I don't see why I should feel more lonely today than I do every other day.

Though I admit to some strong pangs of worry when I see strangely earnest threads about happy couples or my roomate buying gold roses for his fiancee and just go "oh." It feels almost like college is choking off some honest and important part of me, and I wonder whether the fault is my own or some inevitability. I wonder whether two years from now I will know the difference.

Perhaps my destiny is to hibernate, percolating in code and abstraction for three years, and emerge yawning into the sunlight of the real world and a strange new frontier called "women." Will I blink and say "not worth it" like I did in highschool? Will I decide the time for risk is now, missing years be damned?

Am I sacrificing 3 of my best years in the name of an education that will fail to reward me?

What does it profit a man to gain the whole world, yet lose his soul?

Comments

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[huggybee.livejournal.com]

what's THAT supposed to mean??? I'm being attacked from all sides!!! why don't you guys just LINE UP to throw stones at me, I'll stand still for ya!!! jeez!! what can I slit my wrist with?.... [grabs chapstick] this'll be interesting... ;) sidenote: Thanks for helping me with my computer earlier. Didn't mean to bother you with my incessant ignorant questions. but I DO appreciate it. :D (going away now... I promise).... :)

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[niralisse.livejournal.com]

You do realize that's your second suicide threat today? Don't be so quick to off yourself. Not everyone wants you to go away!

Only two?

[huggybee.livejournal.com]

wow, I'm slacking. :) besides, the chapstick didn't work. not I just have a greasy mint flavored arm. wow. that sounds so sexxy. [gag] are you going to the haiku-de-ta tomorrow? you should read something (of any poetical form) write about chapstick! GO! Be inspired! (I need to stop eating so much candy.. the sugar is amking the room twitch) :D catch ya later :D

Re: Only two?

[niralisse.livejournal.com]

No, I will not be going to the 7-syllable smackdown, as I will be back in Seattle with my family. Besides, there'd be no way I could top Graham:

man with gross moustache
shut the fuck up shut the fuck
up shut the fuck up

That boy has issues...

[huggybee.livejournal.com]

and yet we love him for his disturbing poetic talent. :) Have fun in Seattle... I guess tomorrow's a holiday? I keep hearing about it and yet I still have to work three jobs. yay not having a social life. lol Anyways, drive safe, don't talk to strangers, unless they offer you candy, have all the fun I can't on a national holiday and go to bed with this disturbing thought: there are five pictures of me drinking on your one single post. I feel like I need to go to AA now. (can't get a new picture up until I can get someone to resize it for me and my friends love to torture me so, it'll be a while.) anyways, I'll shut up now. :) catch ya later