Aug. 21st, 2004

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So Jeremy finally finished his Bachelor's in CS. 5 years of debt, homework, and 2-hour drives is over, to be replaced by a lifetime of married, um, bliss, and a career. Bizarre. I attended commencement this morning at 10 and it was really cool. Beautiful to think that I and several of my friends will be walking this in the years to come. Made me wish I could've seen Graham's, but oh well. One small benefit of graduating in summer is open seating and a short ceremony. :D Of all times, though, it was raining and they coudn't do the full memory walk thing, which was a disappointment.
Jer's whole family also came up and helped move the last of his stuff out. Cleaned the room top to bottom and extracted both of our nests of computer junk from under the lofted beds. No more microwave or bathroom rugs. No more "my half, your half" or humming computers at night. No more "someone else who speaks english" in the apartment. And this isn't a joyous thing or a rant but a passing. I'm starting to understand why Graham's been complaining about Jake being gone, having your own space is nice but companionship creates a good balance. Man was not meant to face all his days alone.
Some of it is that after Jer quit everquest he turned back into the friend I remembered and it was really cool. The last three months here have been some of the best all year in that regard. That's the person I'll miss.
But yes. It was time for him, and his future looks quite bright and I wish him the absolute best. Of course I'm also heading south in an hour to tell him so at his party. :D

The rain let up after the ceremony but has turned into a torrent. The moat in front of our building is nearly impassable with shoes on, and everything below my jacket is soaked. I look like I've been fording a river, and in some ways I have.

I feel great trepidation about this year of school... my first year felt very planned to me, not because everything was handled for me, it wasn't, but because I felt like I was following a plan without thinking, and things just fell together like a puzzle in reverse. But I don't sense that about this one, and while I know I'm still following a marked out path, the fog is thicker and the woods darker. College is starting to feel like years of violent change with an education on the side.
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So I left late for Jeremy's party (distraction!) and by the time I made it to Mount Vernon at 4:15 I realized two things: 1) It was still raining, and while I have no problem going 75 on wet roads, apparantly rain reduces people here to Sunday drivers that can't exceed 35 and 2) it's 4:15 and it's going to take me half an hour just to clear Mount Vernon, much less Everett. I probably wasn't going to arrive at the party till 6.
It was at this point I started kicking myself for not buying a cell phone last weekend like I wanted to, so I took the clearview exit and found a pay phone. OF COURSE I was in Mount Vernon, and Jeremy's phone is a Bellingham number, so it was going to cost me $2.95. Fat chance, Verizon. I'm turning this car around. So back up to Bellingham I went, to my empty, disassembled room.
I took some time and put things back together enough to use my computer for a while. All this "driving without arriving" really left me feeling annoyed, and I sort of wanted to just go home anyway to spite the traffic. I tried and failed to make dinner and instead ended up joining Becky at Nickleby's for some grilled cheese sandwiches. I went south from there.
This whole combination of getting up early for commencement, the weather, Jer moving out, driving in the rain, etc. etc. has left me in a real funk. And let me tell you, the last thing I need right now is a funk.

I realized while lying on my newly unlofted bed that I no longer will be sleeping with a guard rail on my left. It felt like a metaphor for many things I cannot articulate.

I'm waking up early tomorrow to go with my parents to drop off some friends at the airport and then explore Fry's.
I think.
Somehow it seems hard to justify skipping church for that, especially considering my mood, especially considering it's already 11pm and all I want right now is sleep.
Stavesacre - Freefall (From Hand To Hand)

Sleepless eyes open wide
before Heaven I stand again
If there's no winning this war tonight
I was wondering
If you could steady my spinning head

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